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He said, "We can make a hundred thousand a year." I said, “Well, Let’s go!” The first year we made some good money; about sixty or seventy-thousand dollars. In two years of working with him I didn't know that he was using pow...
My husband helped me a lot. He cried. He prayed. When I would go back out and do wrong again he would come looking for me. He would forgive me.
"I started to understand that was the void I was trying to fill is that I didn’t have Him in my life."
From the very beginning my real dad told me he loved me, but left. He may have loved me, but I don’t know. Then a step dad came in, and said he loved me and my mom, but would also tell me to not tell. It started with fondling...
Every relationship, every encounter, would get worse, would become more perverted, more faceless, more emotionless. I had been with countless men. I could fill up a notebook full of the men that I had been with.
"My grandfather was very perverted. He did things and said things only to me, and it was kept a secret."
I was addicted to pornography, I was addicted to masturbation. I was addicted to sex. I was also a heterosexual male
I was the sixth of seven children. I was molested from the time I was two or three years old until I was six or seven.
I remember of walking on a bridge in New York City, hearing an evil presence. As I looked over the edge of the bridge I heard a voice say, “Jump. It’ll be all over.”
"By the time I was in puberty I had one foot in the homosexual world, one in the heterosexual world, and I didn’t know how I got there."