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"I started to understand that was the void I was trying to fill is that I didn’t have Him in my life."
I had twenty-seven operations and four plastic surgery operations. When I got out of the hospital nine months later I looked okay on the outside; but inside I was still wounded.
The times I would overdose, and go to the emergency room the doctors would say, “Do you have a death wish?”
So, my two year old, at one point, brought me a bottle of vodka. He said; “Here’s your drinking bottle mommy.”
I remember getting up out of the chair and walking around the living room just saying; “Wow! Something just happened.”
My Mother refused to make funeral arrangements. She decided she was going to go and pray.......I wouldn’t be here today if it weren’t for a praying Mama. Thank God for praying Mama’s.
I got a hold of some LSD. That was a real turning point in my life. That was like so different for me that it seemed to open up this whole dimension of the spirit realm that I have never really been aware of before. Of course...
I understood the power on the demonic side because I had been choked by demons, hit by them, slapped by them.
Dad would be like; “Yeah I will be at your event. I will be at your wrestling match.” He wouldn’t show up.
When I arrived home I asked my brother, “Hey let’s get together. Let’s go out and drink. Dad’s dying. We need to go party.”